I’ve been getting these palpitations when I exercise, or even when I just sit down and breathe.

As far as I am able to remember, I used to check my pulse by placing my hurried hand  upon my chest, because I was afraid it had stopped beating.

Even now I can’t feel it, beneath this warm sweater.

A gentle heart.

I place my cold hands upon bare skin, and then press hard. I think  I can feel it.

but the very fact I am breathing suggests I am alive, thus my heart is beating.

Anonymous asked: are you writing to yourself?

yep!

Anonymous asked: not amused

=)

inspiration doesn’t just happen; well not the kind i wish to write about

Anonymous asked: Write something already

something already

=) haha

Anonymous asked: write something, please?

poetry? news paper-esque article on current affairs? a joke? a song I wrote? A journal entry? A random fact? A quote and thoughts on something I’m reading?

I do admit. I want to write. Something original, not something re-‘d. But what?! 

ronnysmusings:

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ah. =), =O, D=, =(. skjdlajdklsjdl. hi.

The Fall of Man - Cletus Kasady

that’s what’s up..

leeyounger:

In 1 Corinthians 13, the Apostle Paul says that there is only one stat that ultimately matters in your walk with God - one thing that that truly tells the world who you are, and that is your love (or lack thereof). The real question is, how do I grow in love? What does love look like? What does love do, and what does it not do? What is love?

10. Love Doesn’t Get Fed Up

You watched the Avengers movie, right? Of course you did. Everybody watched it. Okay, let’s talk about the Hulk. I’ve loved comic books all my life, but I never read the Hulk comics. I was never all that pumped about some dude that just gets really angry and that’s his thing. I was always like, “What’s the big deal? He’s just angry guy?” As far as I knew, the Hulk’s story went like this: At some point, an experiment went wrong that changed him in such a way that when he gets angry, he just becomes this uncontrollable mass of anger. As a kid who loved comics, that just didn’t appeal to me. Then I watched the Avengers movie and changed the way I felt about the Hulk. The dude doesn’t just hulk-out when he’s angry… turns out he’s always angry! No, the hulking out has more to do with destruction. He doesn’t just lose control when he’s angry - he loses control when he gets hurt and he’s ready to end the situation by force with total destruction.

Okay, so what in the world does the Hulk have to do with the Bible and the Apostle Paul and his teaching on love in 1 Corinthians 13? Well, check this out: Paul says in verse 7 that love “always protects.” Literally, he says that love “covers everything.” That word we have translated ‘protects’ is a word that means to shield or cover up, like with a roof. It’s also used in the New Testament to mean ‘bearing with’ or ‘putting up with.’ In other words, he’s saying that people who love know how to put up with one another. They endure everything.

I was thinking about this and trying to figure out what these words ‘protecting’ and ‘covering’ and ‘enduring’ had to do with each another. I was trying to wrap my head around it when I finally looked up some more verses where this word ‘cover’ or ‘protect’ or ‘endure’ is used. In one place, Paul is talking about how the missionaries have a right to get paid for their ministry, but he says he would rather ‘put up with’ anything than get paid for his ministry. In another place he and his companions were in one place ministering and he says, “When I could stand it no longer, I sent Timothy to find out about your faith.”

So, this word for ‘protecting’ or ‘covering’ has to do with not reaching the end of your rope. When you are completely fed up and you’ve had all you can possibly stand, you act. Or, if you’re able to ‘endure’ it, you don’t act. Maybe you end a relationship. Maybe you tell your other friends, “I’ve had it with her!” or “I’m done with him!” Maybe you’ve heard people say stuff like, “We’re through, here!” Some people say that stuff when a relationship has built up so much hurt that they simply can’t forgive anymore and they just have to end it.

It’s as if we all have this little hulk inside us when it comes to our relationships. If we get too hurt or if someone pushes the right buttons with us, we can let that little hulk lose and he’ll come roaring out and destroy the relationship. If we let the lid off that little hulk, he’ll smash everything, burning bridges and crushing love and declaring things like, “I’m done with you! We’re through!” 

I think what Paul is saying is that the love we have in Jesus is a love that says, “I’ll never get fed up. I’ll never burn this bridge.” The love we have in Jesus is a love that allows us to endure anything and keep the cover on the little hulk. When Paul says that love “always protects,” I think he’s saying that love protects everyone else from me. This love protects other people from the hulk inside me that wants to destroy stuff when I get too hurt. Love shields everyone from the monster that I could be because this love doesn’t get fed up.

To see the rest of the WHAT IS LOVE posts, just click HERE

“Satisfied in You” by the Sing Team

verse1

I have lost my appetite
and a flood is welling up behind my eyes
so I eat the tears I cry
And if that were not enough
they know just the words to cut and tear and prod
when they ask me “where’s your God?”

verse2

when im staring at the ground
its an inbred feedback loop that brings me down
so its time to lift my brow
and remember better days
when I loved to worship you in all your ways
with the sweetest songs of praise

Final verse

So when I’m drowing out at sea
and your breakers and your waves crash down on me
I’ll recall your safety scheme
You’re the one who made the waves
and your son went out to suffer in my place
and to tell me that I’m safe

~

Pre+chorus

why are you downcast oh my soul?
why so disturbed within me?
I can remember when you showed your face to me

As the deer pants for water so my soul thirsts for you
and when I  [behold your glory (survoey your speldour)
you so faithfully renew
like a bed of rest,
for my fainting flesh
I am satisfied in you

~
Bridge

Let my sighs give way to songs that sing about your faithfulness
Let my pain reveal your glory as my only real rest
Let my losses shown that all I truly have is you
                   cause all I truly have, is you

Outro

Why am I down?
Why so disturbed?
I am satisfied in you.

turn my mourning into dancing, my migraines into … singing

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its easier to subscribe to the feelings of someone else, its easier to like your temptations that to write them out yourself.

writing takes courage you see. And that makes you the bravest person I know.